Help Me Want To Want You More
“And I assure you that everyone who has given up house or wife or brothers or parents or children, for the sake of the Kingdom of God, will be repaid many times over in this life, and will have eternal life in the world to come.” — Jesus, Luke 18:29
When I read the words Jesus poses here, I’m convicted, and I doubt I’m alone. He doesn’t list the easier things to give up — my fish, my old car, my too-small or out-of-style clothes. No, He goes straight for the things I value, the things I’m supposed to value — people, shelter, family. We preach that these are important things because it’s true. They are more precious than temporary possessions, and we should spend time cultivating relationships and taking care of those around us.
But Jesus had to know we’d mix up our priorities as we do, and He reminded His followers that no matter how much they loved their people or their lives, they were going to need to value the Kingdom more.
So I ask myself how this is supposed to look? Shun my loved ones? Live in a tent? That seems unlikely and unhelpful.
Instead, I think the Lord is saying this: “It’s ok to want those things; you just need to want me more.” And knowing humanity and our tendency to hold pretty tightly to the creation instead of our Creator, I find myself praying for help.
I’m asking God: “Help me want to want You more.” I pray with the trust that He can produce inside of us the desire to do what pleases Him — we don’t have to wait for our feelings to catch up. We can pray this prayer so that if and when we are faced with the question of what we value most, when we have to make decisions based on it, we will be ready and willing to drop what we are holding to take hold of His Kingdom.
God, make us ready.
Call to action:
Pray for God to produce the desire inside of you for Him more than for anything else, and trust that He will deliver.